Thursday, January 14, 2010

Two Month Anniversary of the Memorial Service

Things are still going well. Life is beginning to develop some structure and have a sense of progress out of the holidays. I had set a goal to finish all my thank yous by today, but, alas, I have not. I was recently reading a book on etiquette (trying to find out the correct way of signing my name as a widow) when I learned there is no deadline for condolence thank you notes, just do it. Thus, I will continue on. Thank you for your patience!

We had prayer meeting at our house last night. It truly was a blessing to open our home for ministry once again. The best part about having over 40 people in our small home is getting the house cleaned and the basement organized. I went downstairs with the kids to try and put some order to our junk. Just what was in all these boxes? The first one I opened had a collection of memorabilia from our wedding. Not a good way to begin the day. I initially fell apart; we were saving these things for our 25th wedding anniversary party. The day will be recognized, but a celebration together will not take place. David comforted me and said, "Mom, it wasn't part of God's plan." I am so thankful for the faith of my children.

On Sunday, a friend asked if I was lonely. I hadn't really thought about it. Caring for nine children doesn't allow much time to think about being lonely, let alone feeling it. I can't imagine how lonely I would be if only I had two children--Sarah and Jonathan--all grown up and moved on to their adult lives. I would be very, very lonely. It wasn't part of God's plan. I am so thankful for all nine of my children.

Thank you,
Mrs. Bryan Pollock


Trish said...

I am in tears after reading this post. I think about you and pray for you several times a day. May the Lord continue to strengthen and uphold you.

You are loved!

Victoria said...

I'm thankful for them too. And for you.

Marina said...

I was thinking about what you said about how to sign your name now that you are a widow and it brought to mind my own dilemma after Frank died of how to answer the question of how many children do I have. I still struggle with how to answer that, depending on who asks, but I have realized that I will ALWAYS be his mom and you will ALWAYS be Mrs. Bryan Pollock. I also think that although you are no longer held to the covenant according to His principles, love such as yours doesn't end. I guess that was a little corny but I hope you understand my meaning. You are in my thoughts daily.


Carolyn Young said...

I'm guessing you found the correct way to sign your name. I love it. When we got married I put my mother's name as Mrs. Harold Juergens on the wedding invitation. I'm glad it was correct. (don't know why I didn't look it up!) I just know I loved seeing my Papa's name on the invitations.

Nanci Smith said...

It's always good to get an update!

Yes, your children are amazing with their faith...They have that faith because you and Bryan worked so hard to instill it in them, and unless you had it yourselves, you couldn't pass that on to them. What a beautiful legacy.
It was so evident at the Memorial (their incredible faith and love for the Lord). How wonderful that the fruit of all your hard work is sustaining you in this difficult period.
Still praying for you every day,

Art Lutz said...

Hi Susan--You are oviously on many peoples minds. Many folks have emotionally adopted you and your children into the lives of their own families. God's kingdom is a community of believers who love one another as christ loves us.

Thank you and your children for being a shining light of and for God's love.

Art Lutz

Brenda said...

I can't believe it has been over 2 months already. It is still so fresh and I still can hear his voice so clearly. It is crazy but I still expect him to walk into the room every time I am at your house. I can't imagine how you get through, constantly surrounded by the reminders and yet it is because you shared so much. God has truly blessed you with such strong children to comfort you. You are always in my prayers my friend.

Anonymous said...

Oh, you have me in tears! What a sweet heart you have ~ a precious, strong faith in our ever faithful God. Praise Him for your arrows that surround you and fill your life with joy, comfort and purpose. God is good and knows our frame and cares for our every pain, our every tear, our every struggle. He rejoices to see you sweetly except His plan for your life. What a testimony your life is.